It’s been awhile…..I feel like that is an understatement; to some a little over a month is a very long time. I haven’t known what to write, honestly. So much has been going on and I’ve had a lot of ups and downs so far this year that my thoughts are pretty sporadic.
I guess to begin with, I am thinking about finding another job. I’m very burnt out. I’d like to say that this decision has come from the types of calls I’ve dealt with throughout my time being a dispatcher, but that’s just not true. I am burnt out on the politics. I am not very good at kissing ass; therefore, my supervisor seems to literally enjoy making my life hell when I’m on the clock. Take today for instance. Today is supposed to be my day off, but she scheduled me to work a 7am-5pm shift. “What’s wrong with that”, you ask? “Getting off at 5 isn’t that bad”, you say. Well, my supervisor loves me so much that my regular schedule is a combination of alternating evening/night shifts, meaning I don’t work days. To make matters worse, she scheduled all of day shift….I’d like to point out that she didn’t pull an employee or two from each shift to leave shifts covered, no she pulled all of day shift to go to a class…and scheduled me to work on my day off to cover their shift, split my days off so I couldn’t claim the overtime, and scheduled a mandatory meeting on an off day. I might be the only one that this doesn’t make any sense to. Maybe I’m annoyed with her over the fact that just last month she wrote me up because she called to let me know I was going to be working the end of my shift alone so I said “Thanks for the heads up! I’ll go grab something to eat real quick before I’m alone and can’t leave.” Yes. I seriously got wrote up for telling her “Thank you”. All the while she covers up a few dispatchers who lose their officers, and not on simple calls either. One dispatcher actually lost her officers who were in a foot pursuit calling for an ambulance because she “just didn’t want to make a card.” She has covered up dispatchers stealing time and she refuses to reprimand anyone who is her age or older….but I get written up for saying “Thanks for the heads up!”? Why don’t I follow the chain of command and report her? Sadly, I have. She is so buddy buddy with the assistant chief and the chief that whatever she does is over-looked or they just don’t believe me. I think her actions are over-looked though because there have been other complaints from other people and the person/people who make the complaints are the only ones to receive any attention….and not the “good job” kind either.
I just don’t know what to do. I love my job. I love helping people. I love the feeling I get when I know I actually made a difference in someone’s life. But I have started to ask myself the question “Do you have to be a dispatcher to do all those things?” I have begun to question if I really want to do this for the rest of my life….that question has led to thinking about college, so this can’t all be bad, right?
Well, since this has all been a Debbie Downer, I will leave y’all with something funny. The first 911 call of my day was an elderly man who wanted to complain about his neighbors allowing their dog to poop in his yard. If that’s not 911 worthy, I don’t know what is!
Any comments or advice would be greatly appreciated, but most importantly, I hope everyone is having a fantastic day!